baby steps

i am thankful for having a career job that pays the bills and grateful that i am still employed in this failing economy, blah, blah, blah. but everyday i come to work, i realize that working with children is no longer my passion anymore. yeah, they're fun, whatever, but this is not what i want to be doing for the rest of my life. i have no desire to be responsible for other children anymore. this was a good job when i was single and childless because all my energy could go to my students. but now that i'm a mom myself, my interest in early childhood education has changed. i want to be home with my son more often. i want all my energy to just go to my OWN son and family. and i want to do something with my life that i actually ENJOY and find rewarding. is it selfish to want all these things instead??? i think not!!!

at the same time, venturing into something new is pretty scary and overwhelming to me. first of all, i don't know a darn thing about owning/running a small business! i've been trying to read up about where to begin and asking my own dad for advice (he owns his own welding business). for now, i know that building a successful business takes time. so i'm not rushing into it. i'm just taking baby steps. yesterday, i purchased a digital kit and with the guidance of my "tech-ie" husby, i created my banner and avatar for my etsy store. you don't know how proud i was to see them up on my page! lol! for me, this is just the beginning of, gosh, i dunno, exactly...maybe a new career change that i've been dying to make, maybe my chance to finally be a stay-at-home-mom, and maybe some real satisfaction at what i do for a living :) all i can do is pray and keep moving forward, one thing at a time...